Just Not Enough

Day 246
So I lost my match today. It makes me so mad because I totally could have won! First set we won in a tie break. Second lost 3-6. Third lost 4-6. It was insane! But I'm way pissed off and sad about it! We had it. I guess in the end we didn't have enough to pull through. O well we will see them in Region.
Good things happening are...I really like school so far. Senior year has been fabulous! I need to make one small class change tomorrow and I should be good. And if all goes well I will have another class with Lex!
I'm just all around pretty happy:)

One Word

Day 245
Sick:(

Pretty Please!?

Day 244
Last night we all had a plan on going to the Hello Stomp at school, but that didn't happen. First of all I was forced to go and then when we got there everyone realized how lame it was. We ended up driving around from house to house just doing random stuff.
Lex came and got me later in the night. We had a lot to talk about! But seriously it's like the 3rd day of school and new "relationships" are blossoming! It's crazy!!!
It makes me stressed and emotional, as if I'm not already half the time. Mostly it just makes me think "Please! Can something good happen to me!?"

What Team!?

Day 243
Sadly the Jags lost last night. We almost came back! Next time boys!!
It was a very fun first home game tho!! This year is pretty much going to be GREAT!! I am already having tons of fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have a lot to say, but I don't feel like typing it all down right now, so I will tomorrow.

The Good. The Bad. And...

Day 241
The good:
My first day of school was great!
I love my classes!
I have lunch with Lex and Chel on A days
I can tell this year is going to be the best ever!!!
The bad:
I lost my match today.
I could have played much better!
I have a terrible headache from being in the heat.
And...
I'm really excited for tomorrow!!
More new classes.
Football game!
It's Friday!

Last First Day

Day 240
I can't believe it. Senior year begins tomorrow. Back to high school for the last time. I am so excited, but at the same time I'm a little freaked out!!! Wow!! It's just so crazy!!
I got my nails and my hair done today!! I freaking love my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It looks soooooooooo good! Awww tomorrow, I'm praying, goes as well as I'm hoping!
So I started reading Mockingjay! It's great!!
Anyway, tomorrow is going to be fantastic!!! SENIOR YEAR HERE I COME!!!!

Super Reader!

Day 239
So basically I need to read the rest of 1984 before tomorrow...since school starts on Thursday. Which is completely insane!! I'm ready. I'm ready to face new challenges and new experiences.
I'm ready for even more memories to be made. I'm ready for even more fun with my friends.
Tonight unfortunately I need to READ READ READ!!!! I'm dying to start mocking jay too!!
O and just to throw this in, I'm getting my nails done and hair done!!! I'm soooo freaking happy!!!!!!!!!
But sadly tomorrow sadly is...The last day of Summer:(

Scandalous Surprise

Day 238
Tonight me and my besties are throwing a surprise party for our lovely friend Camie! We were feeling very scandalous so for we bought her 17 thongs! But don't worry we are planing on buying her Mocking Jay!! I can't wait to read it!!! AWWWWWW

Year Of The Kat

Day 237
I saw this video late last night and I almost peed my pants cause I was so excited!!! This season is going to be insane!! Katherine is a crazy!!!!

I can't wait any longer!! I guess the good thing is that I will be busy all of this week. Then once school starts it will be a little bit busier! Oooo it's going to be soooooooooooo good!!

Pretending

Day 236
I have really tried to let things go that aren't really that important, but it's hard. All I do is pretend like everything is ok with what happened, but really it's not. There's no trust or loyalty. Whenever I'm pretending all I can think about is, what really is going on? Texting, talking, hanging out. No matter what is, it makes me sick.
I don't want fake. I don't want lies. I don't this relationship.
I've tried. But I'm not pretending anymore.

Here It Goes Again

Day 235
Football tonight was bomb diggidy!!! Jags won!! I love football games soooooo freaking much!!! It was nice to go back! And it's even better this year since I'm a senior y'all!!!!!
So this next week is going to be pretty sweet!!
Tuesday: Mocking Jay
Wednesday: Getting my hair done!!!
Thursday: Senior Begins!
Friday: First home game!!!
I can't believe I'm saying this but I really can't wait for this weekend to be over!!!

School Please!!!

Day 234
I really just want school to start NOW!!! I am pretty excited for tomorrow. First football game of the season!!!
I don't have much to say so... Here is a quote from the show Huge. It's dang funny!
"Have you ever tried to make GI Joe dance in the sky? It's super depressing."

CRAZY NIGHT!!!

Day 233
Last night was by far one of the funnest nights of my life. My friends are the best! We had a wonderful camp out!! Ate hot dogs, laughed, played Truth, laughed and we even went...STREAKING!!! It was the greatest thing ever! We are crazy girls, that's for sure. I will never forget that night! We all fell asleep by the fire and then got up bright and early for the sunrise!! It was such a fantastic time!

I saw this video and I just had to post it! September is coming closer and closer!!!!

Camp Out!!

Day 232
Tonight all us girls are having a camp out in my backyard before the Senoir Sunrise tomorrow morning!! It's gonna be an awesome night!

Letters

Day 231
Tonight me and Lexi wrote letters to our husbands. We are going to put them in our marriage boxes. It was great!! We are so silly sometimes, but I really can't wait to when our husbands will get to read those letters!!
Tomorrow we play Herriman @ Herriman. Nobody really knows how good they are since they are brand new so it should be very interesting...

Damon!!!!!

As you all know I'm dying for the second season of The Vampire Diaries to start on September 9th!! This is a little preview of Damon!!! O do I miss him so!!!!

That's A Negative

Day 229
I don't really have anything new to report about today. I had a nice night with friends and now I'm pretty tired.
I will say that this next week is going to be pretty fun! Can't wait:)

"I Can Hear The Bells"

Day 228
I feel like Tracy from Hairspray! I can hear those wedding bells now! O how crazy I'm I? I'm 17! Who the heck knows when I'm getting married!
Tonight was such a fun night! Me and my girlfriends made wedding boxes! If your wondering what a wedding box is, I'll give you a brief explanation. You write down, cut out pictures of dresses, pick colors, choose songs, that you want to do for your future wedding! It's way fun and of course gets you way excited for your wedding day. I quite enjoyed myself tonight!
As we were talking about our weddings we of course talked about husbands! I couldn't help wondering, like I often do, where is he now? What is he doing at this very second? Not only does my heart flutter at just the thought of him, but it makes me want to be older so much more!!! But there is a time for when it's supposed to happen. I will gladly wait for him to come along for when it's the right time. Not too long I hope...
Someday I might be reading this entry to him. Expect of wishing he was here with me,I will look up and there he will be. Finally mine. Forever.

The Season Begins!

Day 227
Lady Jags Tennis 2010 has officially began!! We played T-ville today and I have to say us JAGS came home with a V-I-C-T-O-R-Y!! Way to go girls!
I played #3 Singles. I'm sure it will change but it's ok cause I won my match! I'm very happy about it. My family and friends were all there today which made it all the better!! Then I ended that day off laughing with my buds!! Gotta love it:)

Very Much Expected

Day 226
Today I found out things that I really didn't want to know. Like I said earlier. "What you don't know, can't hurt you." But what happens when you know? It hurts even if you had ideas what goes on behind your back. It hurts just as much to realize that your always second. From friends to boys.
Anyway tomorrow is our first tennis match! It's going to be great!

Calm Yourself

Day 225
One of the things that I say a lot is "Calm Yourself"
I really needed to take my own advice on that today!
Not a good day to make me mad...
Tomorrow is a new day! I can't wait to get over with today. I really hope things cool off by tomorrow.

Shopped Til I Dropped

Day 224
I went to registration this morning and stood in line for 2 hours!! But the good thing is mt schedule is WONDERFUL!! Afterwards...
I have been shopping for 10 hours and I have pretty much been everywhere in the whole freaking valley!!! But I got a lot of cute stuff. Now I'm sore and tired so, good night!!

Stoked For Shopping

Day 223
I am singing songs of happiness!!! I absolutely love back to school shopping!!!!! I am so excited to go that I don't think I can even sleep tonight!!! Tomorrow is going to be a good day. As always there are a few items that I am particularly looking for, but mostly my game plan goes like this...Get anything that looks cute and looks great on me!!!!!!!!!!
Awwww I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited!!!!

2 Be Or Not 2 Be?

Day 222
I just think it's kind of cool that today is my 222 day of blogging. I only have 143 more days until I have officially blogged everyday for a whole year!! Crazy!
Today has pretty much been the most boring day ever. And that's just sad. First of all because it's a Saturday and second, I actually haven't been home at all. I went with my mom a lot of places and we went and visited my grandma. So I actually did stuff, but here I am now, sitting on my laptop on a perfectly good Saturday night. Which is extremely weird. I don't think I have been home at 10 for a really long time. And if I have I was with friends. Not tonight though.
I guess I have no excuse but to read some of 1984. I really want to watch a movie on Netflix. As soon as JB gets off the xbox I'm taking over!! I have put good use to the Netfix. It's been really nice to wake up at 11 watch a movie and then finally get ready. So far I have watched, The Proposal, Forever Strong, Tuck Everlasting and Forrest Gump. I have enjoyed them all very much. I had never seen Forever Strong or Tuck Everlasting and they both have become movies I want to watch again.
Well I guess I will try and put this night to use. Night Y'all!

I Really Wish...

Day 221
I really wish these next few weeks would just hurry up! I want to freaking start school.
I really wish I didn't have to read 1984. There is so many books I would rather read right now.
I really wish I was back in Paris right now.
I really wish I was on a cruise ship right now, somewhere out in the ocean.
I really wish I could look into the future and see where I will be at this exact moment 5 years from now.
I really wish I wasn't so paranoid.
I really wish something exciting would happen tonight.
I really wish that the new Vampire Diaries season didn't start till September.
I really wish I wasn't so bored right now.
I really wish I had some yummy food.

Already?

Day 220
Wow we have only been having afternoon practices for a week and I already am getting my awesome tennis tan. My legs and arms are getting their beautiful golden brown color again!! I wish I could keep it like that all year long.
I'm way bored tonight. All alone, just chilling in my room. The crickets outside sound awesome. Plus I'm listening to the Spill Canvas, so the crickets and the music work nicely together.
I can't even begin to explain how excited I am for Monday! SCHOOL SHOPPING!! It's probably one of my favorite days of the year.
Well I guess I better start reading my required AP reading. 1984. It's pretty interesting, but I hate when you are forced to read something. It just makes you not want to read it.
Nightie night.

It Happens

Day 219
They say that the lord what ever give more than we can handle. I keep wondering when my point is reached when I don't have to suck it up and take it. Yes. I'm talking about the guy again. It's still the same one. I know it's sad. I'm pretty pathetic.
Today we ran and lifted inside because of the rain. So of course the football team was there. And to make this as less painful to write down, I'm pretty much invisible to him. Walked right past him and....nothing. I can't even begin to explain what goes thought my mind at moments like this. First of all, talk about an awkward moment. Second the ducking and staring at the floor. Third Knowing he saw me, all sweaty and no make up, but if I looked normal still doesn't even want to look me in the eye. Fourth realizing he still knows I look at him and he's amused by it.
Not a good day, especially since we finally had the burn party last night.
It shouldn't be this way. He shouldn't be pushing his way into my life. He shouldn't pretend I don't exist. He shouldn't text my friend, but then again she shouldn't text him either. He shouldn't want to make me want it back. But I guess it just happens...to me.

Next Time

Day 218
I have so much to say, but not enough time tonight. So next time I will tell all.
Good night!

T.T.T

Day 217
Right now I have 3 things on my mind.
I'm Tired
Tennis
I'm Ticked

What You Don't Know...

Day 216
Well last night was interesting. Went to a big movie night with my girls!! We had a good time and we took some pretty hilarious pictures!!! haha o I love my friends!
Anyway I would like everyone to know to truth behind the statement "What you don't know, Can't hurt you." Believe me I have been living this for a whole year. But then agian would you rather know what goes on behind your back? I've kind of learned that this week.
This made me think of a scene in one of my favorite movies of all time, How To Make An American Quilt. I going to quote it because, yes, I'm a dork like that...
Anna: "I never liked full moons. They give people an excuse to do foolish things."
Finn: "I'm young. I'm supposed to do foolish things."
Anna: "And spend the rest of your life paying for them?"
Finn: "I rather that than wondering what I missed."
Anna: "I'd rather wonder than kick myself."
Finn: "I'd rather kick myself."
Anna: "Then you will die with a sore backside."